I Believe.

Good evening. Only God would be there when my father died at a time when he was all I had. Only God would be there to wait 18 years for me to get to know Him all the while looking out for me. Only God would be there when I did stupid things that should have cost me my life. Only God would be there when a 6 month old made it clear that he was in my life for good. Only God would be there when I had to choose between money for food and money for gas. Only God would be there when I realized that I had purpose even though I didn’t know what it was. Only God would be there during my 150 miles a day, 5 days a week commute safe and unharmed – not even a scratch. Only God would be there when a long time friend walked away and never looked back. Only God would be there when my own family took advantage of me and tried to dominate my life and manipulate me. Only God would be there the night I cried because my last close friend was moving away. Only God would be there when I, again, lost a father and best friend all at the same time. Only God would be there when professional loyalty turned out to be my worse nightmare. Only God would be there when I discovered that I was born into freedom. Only God would be there when I felt completely alone and misunderstood by everyone. Only God would be there when a subtle voice told me that my lifestyle didn’t align with my character. Only God would be there when my heart ached because the person I fell in love with, my first love, didn’t love me. Only God would be there when I had to swallow my pride and apologize to and forgive someone I honestly didn’t hurt. Only God would be there when I asked for forgiveness for hurting those that I did. Only God would be there the moment I realized that people stick close to you for immediate access to use you. Only God would be there to re-assure me that I was wonderfully made despite of what I felt or thought at the moment. Only God would be there when I learned that some people in my life wasn’t supposed to be there and I had to let them know. Only God would be there to give me the character to accept all the things I’ve done wrong knowing that they don’t make up who I am. Only God would be there to tell me that I’m a flawed human by design and only He was perfect. Only God would be there to give me the strength to be free and share my life with you. And so it continues…

Remember, the end is not where we learn the most, it’s the journey we take to get there. Even at our most uncertain times, the worse moment isn’t until we no longer have a chance to get it right. Where there is breath, there is fight. Never forget that. Stay the course.

Peace – Kimberly