Who Knows?

This song greatly resonates with the hurt after someone that you truly love has walked out of your life.  The pain in unexplainable, but yet everyone has an explanation.  Everyone has your best interest at heart and know exactly what you need to do next.  Not true.  The truth is that only 3 people are involved.  The two that are in the relationship and the God that hopefully they both serve.  Everyone ese….well they just don’t know.

It’s easy for someone to wipe a tear or to hold a hand, but there’s not much else that people can do for a truly broken heart.  There’s (humanly) nothing that can’t be done about the pain of someone trying their best to explain their feelings to someone and the whole time being rejected at every word.  And then having to be all spiritual and righteous and forgive them and wish them the best…THAT HURTS.  This type of pain can’t be healed by man and unless someone’s really been in love, it can’t be felt by man either.

I think this is where many of us go wrong with moving forward with relationships.  Sure we make committments to God; we vow to take care of ourselves, move forward with our lives. But we sometimes forget to do one thing – let God heal our hearts.  We forget to submit our hearts to Him; we forget to submit ourselves to Him.  We don’t ask Him to reveal to us our imperfections and what may be wrong within us.  We don’t ask Him to teach us how to love and how to be open and give of ourselves freely.  And above all, we don’t practice to perfect love by truly loving God first. It’s so much easier to just say, “I’m good” and walk away knowing that you really aren’t.  It’s so much easier to say, “I’m not doing the relationship thing or I’m not trusting again.” “It’s all about me.” To that, I say, keep living.

Now, many will read this and see it as a very depressing post, but not really.  Actually, it’s the reality of love.  Everyone wants to shine light on the beauty of love and how great it is.  But as with everything in this life, there is another side.  This side.  But don’t let that discourage you.  All of the hurt I just wrote about has a purpose that we sometimes miss.  You see, a hurting heart is a great indicator that your heart is still responsive, still repairable. It still feels, and most importantly, it still loves.  See, when your heart gets to a point to where it’s hard and not so responsive, chances are is that you, yourself, have become numb. Numb to love, numb to life, numb to all that’s around you.  Your heart’s become rock solid, immovable, unbreakable.  Dead in a sense.  Dead in spirit. Dead in emotion.  Why live that way?  Through the heartache, tears, pain…press right on into God’s arms.  There’s healing there.  Effective healing.

Life experiences have been tough, but in the midst of them, I decided that I wasn’t going to be afraid to take on a heart ache or two.  As a matter of fact, I’ve taken a heart ache or two, but I’m still here.  Still loving, still feeling, still living life, and still breathing.  I’ve seen ‘numb’ people, and that’s not it. Bishop once said that “hurting people hurt people.”  So real. So real.